A Year to Remember....

 I hope everyone had a Wonderful Thanksgiving... I know I did (it was my first year making the turkey).. I had this fear I was going to burn the turkey and never hear the end of all the jokes from the family..LOL.. And I'm glad to say my sisters, my daughter and I did a great JOB!!

 This year is my last year here in the Denver area.... And it kinda makes me sad that some people who you thought so much of could careless about spending time with you.... This makes me wonder who REALLy is genuine.. Maybe I shouldn't say it makes me sad... it just makes me appetite the ones who ARE Genuine. And it makes me realize has it always been me making the effort...(has it always been a one way street?)  I think I've realized I deserve better... and why would I stand for that?!? NO THANK YOU.. I'LL PASS!!

   I'm hoping all my test come back normal so there are no humps in the road... so we can move when planned...  I did receive my CAT scan results the night before Thanksgiving via email once again.... but before I post anything I have many question for my doc.... ( I don't think it's anything bad... but I still would like to know details)

 "If you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer." -Matthew 21:22

" Then when you call, the Lord will answer. 'Yes, I am here,' he will quickly reply ". -Isaiah 58:9

"I'm leaving everything I know to serve the LORD... The King of ALL KINGS"- Angelica Arellano.


Misty Edwards- MORE
http://youtu.be/30K1ynJgSMc

Kim Walker- He loves US
http://youtu.be/X-rW528qiYw

Test Results

I had my procedure last Monday, and I had been flaring before hand, so after the procedure I started to flare even more!! Talk about having it bad!! Here I am once again hyping myself up for a Cocktail/Installations..

I received my test results via email.... And would like to share with everyone...

Angelica, I was able to review your recent upper endoscopy biopsies. I am happy to say that your biopsies were essentially unremarkable. There was no cancer, polyps, ulcers or significant problems. There was however, some helicobacter pylori bacteria found on biopsy. This is a relatively common finding that can lead to gastritis, ulcers and, rarely, stomach cancer.  I have also arranged for CAT scan of the chest abdomen and pelvis to evaluate the nodule that I saw under the wall of the esophagus.  I would recommend following up with me a week or two after completing your course of antibiotics. You should also be taking a strong acid blocker such as Prilosec, Prevacid, Nexium or similar during this period. 

 

This picture is my stomach                      This is One Nodule-This is the Second Nodule (Both in my Esophagus)

And believe it or not the whole time I was waiting for test results I was joyful  that whole week!! I believe it's the Grace of God AND HIS Amazing LOVE!! Tomorrow I go in for my CAT Scan... I still don't understand why I still have to have a CAT Scan... But it is what it is!! 

 I believe I needed to go through this to make me change as a person, I think All my life I took LIFE for granted... I never thought I was like that, until recently I looked back on my life. In my early twenties living the fast life, and allowing people to treat me like I'm replaceable... NOW I know who's REALLy there for me, and Who just come around when it's convent for them!! It saddens me but it is what it is!!

I'm just grateful for my wonderful husband and kids!! This month has been One emotional roller coaster!! To realize people you cared about sOo much ALL your life, could careless about you!! They know what your going through.. and to only have awkward silence when we talk..(maybe they just don't know what to say..)  I guess I've been reflecting on my life and everyone in it...  All I can do is pray for them...(RIGHT?!?) I sometimes get mad about it.. because they say one thing and do another (JUST like the saying.. Actions speak louder than words!) 

But to end this on a POSITIVE NOTE.... I want to give God ALL the Glory and Praise on giving me a peace in my soul and a joy in my heart in these difficult times!! I would like to share two songs that come to mind when I think of his LOVE!! Everyone have a Great Thanksgiving! God Bless!!


Hillsong-Desert Song
http://youtu.be/4WYK6TxWX7s


Kim Walker- I Surrender


http://youtu.be/oSgn-nmBpNY

*A day I would like to forget...

 Today was an emotional day for my family and I.... I had an EGD and Colonoscopy done today...
I guess I went in thinking they would find nothing or find out I have IBS... Well.. I guess that was wishful thinking!!
 The doc found a nodule in my esophagus which was biopsied... and now it's the waiting game... This will be the longest 7 days of my life... I just pray for strength, courage and nothing but positive thoughts!!  The next step is a CT scan of the area where they found the nodule...

 After hearing the results my husband and I didn't talk or even discuss what we had just heard (the car was silent)... I think it was a state of shock for the both of us... then after dinner we had some time alone to talk... He expressed that he knows it's nothing, because God didn't give me him just to take me away... And all I can think is my husband and kids don't deserve to go through this.... My husband always voices to me how I'm the back bone of the family... and without me he is nothing... It brakes my heart that I can't be the "Angelica" everyone knows and loves... I'm usually trying to act like I'm in NO pain and put a smile on my face.... Wish me luck for the up coming testing... and please keep me in your prayers!!

This song came to mind today...
http://youtu.be/M-GPbYcTDbQ

Wonderful In Every Way!!

 Yes indeed wonderful in every way! This is what I say when I look over at my significant other after staying up late with me for 2 weeks now(every night) with insomnia.... I look over with such amazement how well he has taken over some stuff I sometimes can't do anymore... I think and always say, "I've been blessed!"

  I always say he is my rock... Like the bible says in marriage you become One...a 3 fold with God! Tonight was such an emotional night...(with the GI appt. tomorrow) And for my Rock to go out of his way to make me comfortable in every way...Is so amazing to me! I'm so lucky the Lord sent him to me...So Ray.. Here's to you! And many more... Richer or Poorer... Sickness and in Health!! I Love YOU!!

  Sade- Lovers Rock...;-)

http://youtu.be/WvUayiIMNxw

Sade- Nothing can come between us!

http://youtu.be/XVij6j5do2A

What A DAY!!!

Today's Blog will consist of songs and Scriptures since I've been kinda heated today how people take life for granted!! All I WILL say is  Life is too short... don't sweat the small stuff.. be happy you can enjoy life with the ones who mean the most to you.....

"For the Lord delights in his people; he crowns the humble with salvation." -Psalms 149:4
http://youtu.be/WMZ45ezYFkA

"The Peace of God... Shall keep your hearts & minds."-Philippians 4:7
 http://youtu.be/oSgn-nmBpNY

 "May all who search for you be filled with joy and gladness. May those who love your salvation repeatedly shout, "The LORD is great!" -Psalm 40:16
http://youtu.be/CoUOrLe4vlY

What a day to stay home

Today is Not a good day...As some of you may know I have problems with my stomach and this is the reason for the appt with the GI doc.... But until then I have to suffer with all this sickness and madness!!

I woke up feeling weak and shaky... Only to find out I forgot about a family members birthday party today... I hate being anti-social because of the IC or with my stomach!! But I've decided to suck it up and go...

 I love to express myself through music...So here's a song that I thought fits my mood today!!
Click on the Name below....

 Stand in the Rain By: SuperChick

Can We Say "Cocktail"...(Shaken not Stirred)

Yes this blog will be short and sweet...." Yes I would like another Cocktail Please "... And 2morrow is T.GoSh.I.F!!  It's only right...So here I am hyping myself up once again...I need more info on the whole catheter issue!! I've had a few traumatic moments with the 2 different sizes I have... I need some feed back..I need an expert on the whole "Cocktail"/Installations issue!!

 Once again I'm up late, I have no energy for all this... My body is just sOo uncomfortable... I NEED SLEEP!!

 Well IC Family Good Night... and God Bless

"He that shall humble himself shall be exalted." -Matthew 23:12
"At the voice of thy cry: when he shall hear it, he will answer thee." -Isaiah 30:19
"Always be a positive force for yourself and others." -Angelica.

Here's another favorite of Hopeful Angel!

http://youtu.be/X4GmLRTJq1w

Hello everyone....

Has anyone ever tried Lidoderm( Lidocaine patch for the pelvic area?) I'm having a bad flare and need some relief from the pain.. any suggestions?

I also have french tip catheters, does that make a difference? I think that's why my installation went awry this last time....

It's Only the Beginning of the Madness

Hello my IC family... I hope all is well... Yes people it is only the beginning of the madness for me! I received a call today from my general doc saying my GI appointment is set... and to me that sounds like the beginning of  horrible testing... (Well in my eyes it is)  I read all the time on different sites how we (IC patients have soOo many other things going on with our bodies... and not just the bladder...)

 So I'm crying out... crying out to My IC Family for answers.. what should I expect from the Gastro doc?!? I need some kind of idea on what to expect when I go... Please give me some feed back...

 All last week I had to hype myself up for an installation (since the last one was done with a Male Catheter, so that was an experience I will NEVER forget!!) So after all last week of Hyping myself up only to have another installation to go awry AGAIN!! (NO Wonder why I have to hype myself up every time!)LOL... Here's some IC Talk for you.... well everyone went out last Friday to have a cocktail after work... I came home and had my own cocktail...(A Cocktail I dread to make!!)LOL...On today's Happy hour Specials we have: 3CC OF SODIUM BICARBONATE, 8CC OF  LIDOCAINE,  AND 100MG OF ELMIRON....LOL...Just little IC humour for you, I would rather go through trials and hard times with a smile on my face!! NO MATTER HOW BAD IT MAY LOOK OR FEEL... Remember We can only do this with the GRace of God.. YOu can go through your trials and hard times feeling sorry for yourself and be down or you can be joyful and have hope for a cure... AND SHOW THE WORLD THAT WE DON'T LET THIS DISEASE CONTROL OUR LIFE!!! Good Night my IC Family... and God Bless!!

**Here is an amazing song... How Beautiful the KING of ALL KINGS IS!!**

http://youtu.be/JbCfyZHSQbE